It has now been just over two weeks after the QLD State Final and my preparations for the National Grand Finals are well underway! I’m nervous…but oh so excited on so many levels: Excited to venture off to another state and meet pinups from all over the country! I am really looking forward to spending a few days with all these wonderful people and seeing their awesome performances that they have poured their heart and soul into!
Following the State Final I had a week outside of my normal routine. I’m a creature of habit and I normally thrive on routine, but sometimes after ticking something big off my list, it’s as though my mind and body rebel against the idea of the norm.
After enduring a stressful week as a result of my…week off, a part of me regretted this time away from structure. Although, I guess I did need it in order to re boot for the busy weeks ahead.
This post, I guess, serves to bring everything back down to earth and highlight that of course, nothing is ever all sunshine and roses (regardless of what social media may have you believe!)
I think a big part of the journey aspect of being an entrant in Miss Pinup Australia is this new and exciting journey of self-discovery, running alongside your day to day, regular one. As much as I’d love to be, I’m not a full-time pinup *insert sad face. I work a day job and am trying to build some sort of career. I have family, friendships and a relationship that are all important to me and many other random commitments- just like everyone else! In fact, I tend to over commit myself in some instances and as I get older, learning when to say no is something I am trying to improve.
There is emphasis placed on the importance of working on your Miss Pinup Australia plans and endeavours and that this should act as you time, but naturally, fitting this in sometimes isn’t easy. Hell, I pretty much need someone to light a candle and draw me a bath and force me to take time to myself. At some points throughout my Miss Pinup Australia journey, I have felt that I need a little push to perhaps drop some less important things and focus on what will make me feel organised, happy and at ease.
This past week has seen a lot of ups and downs: My colleague (who doubles as one of my best friends) got a new job and the transition after having worked together for almost four years has definitely been a challenge. I’m also back looking for a housemate and after jamming so much into last week, this news was a little too much for my sleepy old brain to fathom. I have, quite simply, just had too much to do and not enough hours in the day to complete them… The age old problem right?!
I also have a tendency to focus on the negative which is something I am also hoping to improve, little by little.
Now being in the clear and out of the fog of my stressful week, I’ve had a bit of time to reflect and see the positive in things I could only see the negative in some days ago.
As per usual, Dave has been incredibly helpful, going above and beyond to field all my stupid questions about what hat would go with that outfit, whether we can successfully make that prop and whether I can fit everything I need in my suitcase. So although it was stressful, the silver lining is that I have someone super supportive and special there to help me out in any way they possibly can. Pretty darn lucky I’d say.
I’m a big fan of the clichéd and over-used phrase “What doesn’t kill you, only makes you stronger.”
I think it holds a lot of truth and acts as a reminder that we all hold the ability to surprise ourselves in what we can achieve, whether that be on a big or day to day scale.
In this past week I have been busy on the hunt to source a few outstanding items and planning portable props (I’m so sorry I can’t fit my beautiful dresser in my suitcase Dave). I did also manage to fit in a lunch with some of my MPA pinup pals on Sunday, organised by the gorgeous Miss Kitty Sapphire.
True to form, I have a massive to do list at the moment, and am on a mission to remain as organised and proactive as possible. I also had an interview and photo with my local paper, who wanted to follow up from the report they did ahead of the state finals! I am really excited to see how it turns out!
I have this whole weekend set aside to do nothing but get everything organised. I’m resisting the temptation to fill the weekend when I actually have the chance to have some of that me time we talked about earlier!
That’s all from me! I’ll have another update after the weekend.
Enjoy the rest of your week lovelies!